I can see you in all....

Am i so ugly de? not even want to see me in ur life?
Am i so rude or bad character, to leave me and walk away?
Machi sollu de?
I can see you wen ever thy do Yoga, u sleep and say that u do yoga... I am really enjoying it machi...
But u thwred me like peice of shit .
you say that i need some one to boost me, i am not that de....
U showed me real care and affection.. i know what ever or whom ever say that u din love me.... i cant evn believe evn if u say that u din love me...
I am really feeling to hear ur voice de.... Be happi.... I am not worth,,,,,,
Please de, understand....
Don suspect me and hurt me any more....
U know? i have not lied to u.... wat evr happens i have said to u.. 
thn how did u suspect me? i have always listen to ur pblm and feelimgs .. but now u r not even ready to hear my voice.

First personal blog for you.

Hi, This is my First personal Blog. I have written many blogs for the purpose of earning but this is for you.
Machi, I feel as if i am speaking to u. Today you said me that i should not call you, u deleted all our numbers and u forgot us. Really de, it was jus like killing me .
The day i took to my home, i felt i have a got a girl whom i have to take care of her jus like mom. I fought to get a good lilfe for you. But, you din believe. Its oki, sorry. Really you don know how much i loved you.
I always respected your feeling de, but you suspected me. It kills machi.
You lost my Diary and the hand made gift which i gave you. I know you din read that letter nor the Diary i gave you.
I know you forgot me, 26/october/2011 in the guindy bus stand you gave me pani puri. that was the last time de you spoke to me with real love. After that you started avoiding me like a hell and treated me as a piece of shit. Oki mama!!!!!
If i suspect you, i am doing disgrace to my mom. It will be as if i am suspecting my mom. Machi, understand de. This are the words i said you in the month of September not telling you now to justify.
I am the boy of your age, even i am a human being. I am unable to forget and want to  hear ur voice. Don suspect me.
U ll realize how much i loved you.